Well, just at least it was a call ... who knows at least they are looking at my resume. That means they are liking what they are seeing. Now only if they can start calling me for a positions I am qualified for. It would really be nice.

Go figure about the time I give up, is about the time they start calling me to see if I want a job. What a good ego booster ...

I just tell them to ignore them, because after all there are 3 of them ... if he tries anything they have each other’s backs. Don’t talk to him, don’t go out & play with him ... & when he talks his mess walk up & ask him to bring it on. Cause he’s pretty good about running home when he’s pushed. My youngest want’s to flat out beat this boy from one end to another. I just wish they would take some of their temperament from their father.

Here I go trying to tell my boys not to go out with idea to beat this boy up ... after all it is not quite the right thing to do. Their first question ... What did you use to do as a kid, mom? Wishing I had not done the whole lot of what I did has a kid ... so getting Dad to come in & talk to our kids was a better idea.

My boys have decided to stay away from this kids for a while. More of a "let’s teach him a lesson" kind of lesson. It will be interesting to see how that goes. After all he always comes to see if they can come out, not the other way around. It should teach him a lesson to be honest, don’t threaten them because they won’t take it.

Bitch & complain ... whaaa boo hoo. Get over it. Only problem is, I have been trying to find a job since before I had my stroke. Now you figure for well over a year & no one has hired me, that should tell me something huh? Pretty sad seeing that I have seen individuals who look like they have walked from what looks like cleaning up or gardening & get hired ...

I get ready for an interview, dress properly, have my resume with me & ready to answer the questions ... usually walk away w/ out a job. I have tried everything from a-z & right now I am just so sick of it.

My husband tells me it will take some time, just relax & know that eventually I will get a job ... when? I have been trying for over a year ... good thing I am not a phsycho, cause this would push me over the edge. Right now I am just tried of it.

"We will call you back." "You are not what we are looking for." "We need someone who can come in at any time." "Thank you for your time." Basically we are here to waste your time but you are not what we are looking for. After all what all do I need to do? Cause thanks to my body, school is not really an options for me right not, mainly because my mind cannot keep the information that it is suppose to. Lovely & fun, but I can still do what I had already knew before.

I guess you cannot say I am quitting ... but damn I am I really annoyed. I guess I just have to jump & down and have a hissy fit to get a paying job. After all I have tried everything but it hasn’t worked.

Yes, they put me though some pretty good times. I have one who loves to explore. One who so was incredibility shy he wouldn’t talk to any one. One who feared nothing. And the youngest, just loves everything in life. They have kept part of what they started out with but they have grown into amazing teens & children.

Recently I told someone that my children saved my life ... she did a double take, because many think "you have kids & life is over." When you have children, you get to see life in a new way. You get to see life again through a child’s eyes ... each of my children has a different view on life and how they see it. Which means I get 4 different views from them. Does that mean they really saved my life?

When I had my stroke, my kids were here for me ... they were the one who helped me. That is what I meant. If it wasn’t for them, I probably would have faded away. Who would have known? I would have had a different life with out my children in my life ... but because my children are in my life that explains it.

They are so special, so important ... they are the future. What they learn growing up, what they experiences, and what we show them ... that is what really matters. As long as I teach my children to treat others as they wish to be treated, then we are doing pretty well. Pity we cannot convince the rest of the world to do the same.

Tonight I watched some mom’s with their kids ... some kept a tight grip on them, and a few allowed them a bit of freedom. It’s always interesting to wonder why the variety on "controlling" children. Because in the end there is no control, there is only teaching them to become the person they should become ... respect, consideration, knowing right from wrong & doing the right thing, & so on.

I sat down the other day and thought about the entire situation. Is it really worth it? Nope, as far as I am concern fight all night ... I hope the neighbor call the police on you. I also hope someone calls them for the dog barking all night as well. Because my husband & children were sound asleep ... me, I can sleep during school hours in my daughter’s room (make up sleep).

Aside from that, you want to fight and argue like that, keep your kids up ... I can hear them crying though the walls. Then you end up paying the price.

It’s just too funny because in public they act like the perfect couple but behind closed doors they argue like that. He doesn’t hit her because with the clothes she wears you would see it ... they just have to learn to get use to being back together. It is never easy after being apart for so long. They should see Family Advocacy or go see a shrink ... that is why the military offers these options!

In the end, I just want to sleep at night instead of crashing during the day ... I have a life too. Consideration would be a bit nice.

It is not like what I find so interesting is that he comes home & I have to take care of him. It’s not just him, all them come back with the crude. This is the one duty station where he gets the field crude ... I do not know what else to call it.

Sadly enough I am not the only person having to deal with it ... please don’t spread it to me!!! Is what ½ of our ladies are thinking or to the kids. Pretty sad, but if it spreads, then we get sick ... know what happens then? Every thing goes down hill.

Here they give them they same pills every time. Take this, it will get all better ... we give them plenty of warm blankets, tons of hugs but lots of room because there’s not way you are making us sick with that.

It doesn’t matter if it is the back yard or did they send them out the door ... as soon as they are home, they start getting sick. Some times I really wonders if it’s simply the road trip ... those vehicles aren’t like what we drive.

I have applications pretty much every where, I have resumes out as well ... yet no one wants me. Sure let me volunteer, I am great at that ... just no one want so hire me. Just exactly what did I do to deserve this?

That just sounds pretty petty doesn’t it? Right now I can look out around the world ... we have those how are dealing with what a hurricane did to their homes, another one coming in, those dealing with wars in two countries, soldiers being sent to try to help them & here I am worried about getting hired so I won’t get "too bored."

It’s not just because I am bored, I truly miss working. After my stroke, I cannot go back to school until the therapy sessions are working or through (depends how you look at it) because I have to learn to keep what I learn in my head. But a job, that means I am doing some thing besides sitting here all day creating chores or activities for me to do. Getting a job means I can earn money, put it some more back ... & pay off my truck.

Instead here I sit after doing dishes & laundry, typing in an online journal waiting for my kids to get out of school ... at least about then my day picks back up. Cause for the last few hours it’s been pretty boring.

As for the job applications & the resumes ... You can only check on them ever so often. I think you push too hard & they shredded them or consider it close to stalking. Volunteering ... right now I am getting pretty boarded with that, it the same old stuff day in & day out. (Plus they are gossiping right now & I don’t care for it.)

I really think my sanity depends on this matter ... Job or to go NUTS.

Now going off of this story, this really gives you way to much to think about. I am shocked that they did not find a way to prevent this.

I am not sure if I like this one or not ... to me it is like other sites. But this about me, which is like others who make them about themselves too ... Oh well. You win some & you lose some. Life goes on. I am still working on several things & the site is not done, but it part of the pages are up. Currently it is a work in progress ... in other words, it is just like me!

I have being a mom, being a military wife, being me, a link to my journal ... not sure what else I will put up there. Eventually I will figure it out.

I have seen what some others have done with their. I like some of the ideas ... but I want to find my own. Who knows, eventually I will or maybe I will just pull it down?